i also ran into another obstacle which is my poor visualisation ability. i can only use places that i've been before and the people have no visual detail at all. this is also true for my dreams

i see this as a spatial 'house' visualisation thought type separate from both regular visualisation and spatial thought. i cannot visualise a cube, i cannot remember a map and use it to navigate, but i can imagine where the walls of a building are. as though fumbling in the dark

i can remember the streets to walk a particular route, but it is quite poor over such large areas and there are a lot of blank spots even imagining close to where i have lived for a long time

these also seem to be remembered forever, unlike events that happen to me which i barely remember at all. i think i can also remember places i've only been once or twice. so i suppose these places define who i was more than anything else. kinda shitty since i assume it's taking up a lot of space and is basically useless information compared to real memories

so for the writing i did today i had to use a specific section of a certain public library i visited frequently as a child. i can visualise minecraft worlds and remember any i have created in the past with the same fumbling-in-the-dark clarity, so i'm seriously considering using creative mode minecraft as a tool to design settings just so i can imagine them properly